October 8, 2025
This morning, I sat in stillness and heard Spirit whisper:
“What happens when you mess up the work is the same thing that happens when you mess up the faith— I make a way anyway.”
I carried that peace through the day until the world tested it.
A minor thing—rude customer service agents, an inconvenience that should’ve rolled off my back—but instead, it cracked something deeper.
Anger rose up, not from entitlement, but from exhaustion.
And for a moment, I wanted to scream. I wanted to finally say, “Stop mistaking my calm for permission to play in my face.”
But instead, I cried.
For the first time in a long time, I cried.
And as the tears streamed down my face, I whispered, “My tears are back.”
Because somewhere along the way, I learned to protect myself by going silent.
I’d confused composure with safety. I thought I’d lost my tears, but really—they’d been waiting for a safe moment to return.
To me, growth looks like honoring my boundaries without betraying my peace.
And tonight, they did.
I realized I don’t want to become hardened.
I don’t want to meet disrespect with rage or mirror the chaos I’m working so hard to heal from.
I want to remove myself from systems, people, and energies that provoke me into versions of myself I don’t want to live in.
I am not an angry spirit.
I am a woman chasing a consistent way to honor her boundaries without betraying her peace.
I can be strong without being cruel. Direct without being demeaning. Clear without being cold.
That’s who I want to be. Not Miranda Priestly in The Devil Wears Prada—just a woman committed to choosing herself with grace.
The very act of choosing peace in the moment has become my proof of growth.
Faith needs work. But I am human. So even when the work is working, God still makes a way anyway.
This reflection is a celebration of this moment in my healing journey.
May it remind you that your blooming deserves to be celebrated, too.
Yours in haute healing,
DreamGirl
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