I want to make enough money that I don’t have to rely on anyone.
I want a gorgeous, well-endowed man with an incredible stroke—on standby and only for me.
I want commitment to physical health and the consistency to tend to my mental and spiritual rituals with reverence.
I want a best friend who shows up with the perfect amount of judgment, and never leaves.
I want more trips to paradises where I’m treated like a goddess.
I want a glow that matches my gratitude.

And somehow, part of me still whispers: You sound shallow.
As if having the nerve to want these things is a flaw in my spiritual alignment.
As if gratitude and desire can’t sit at the same table.

But here’s what I know to be true—they have to.
Because the kind of abundance I’m calling in doesn’t come from pretending I don’t want it.
It comes from honoring that I do.

I’m actively wrestling with the lie that tells me I’m ungrateful because I want more.
More intimacy. More freedom. More soft days. More juicy, aligned opportunities.
More money, yes. But also more peace. More play. More beauty. More room to be.

We say, “You only get more when you’re content with what you have.”
And that’s true—gratitude is a magnet.
But how dare we treat it like a trap?
Why shame ourselves into settling when gratitude was meant to fuel creation?

I’m done asking for less just to make others comfortable.
I’m done confusing humility with hiding.
I want more—and I’m not sorry.
Because the desire didn’t come from ego.
It came from expansion.

There’s more I want to say about that.
But for now… this is where I’ll begin.

What’s something you’re grateful for—and still want more of?
I’d love to hear your heart on it. Let’s talk in the comments💖